Is this goodbye..... ?

What can I say, what can I do
My best friend- my brother said 'Go on your way',
What can I say, maybe I'm just a lout
I cannot push myself and go into his house

Yes, we've been buddies; he's the brother I never had
And some stuff I did, he said it seemed bad
I know it should not have ended this way
It’s the pressures that have been about- I tend to sway.

The world, now-a days, it don’t seems right
Maybe the things I liked- I loved, seemed to take flight
I don't know, I didn't think, maybe I don't know much
Perhaps it’s not the love, I may not have had much.

I don't know, I seemed to feel it today,
There seemed no reason- the sadness crept up and had his say
There's nothing left, for he's gone his way
My brother- the one I loved, never mind... i'm going away