Does it really hurt ?

So this is a little story
One I thought I would never tell,
It meant so much
It broke my heart
But I went in anyway.

So you’re leaving
And its going to hurt
Hell maybe I will even cry
Call me baby, a wuss
But I am here to stay

I don’t know why it happens
Why so much intensity
Is there a ‘giving’
And does it matter?

Why does it matter
Does caring mean so much
Is there a catch involved
And can I avoid the trap?

Where do I draw the boundary
Is there a line,
Can there ever be a line
Between a boy and a girl
Not merged or messed with by gender hormones

Hell it hasn’t been easy,
Its been tough sometimes
But hanging out and just listening in
Gives me the peace within

That finally I was doing something
Something worth while
Something that god above would say ‘son’
'You gave and the cost you did not account for'
And I am proud of you
For I love you.